May 11th, 2022
The only way I have found to get myself unfreaked about the future, is to have a hand in its creation.
I know I can't control for the future, I know overthinking is going to kill me. I know worrying is not the answer. So I have practices.
I practice meditating every day. I sleep better. I process this crazy world better. It tips me away from all the fear - allowing me to find solutions instead of invent problems. I practice for an open mind.
I excercise to stay flexible and feel good in my skin. I practice for a future where flexibility and strength might be needed.
Then there is my third type of practice; I intentionally set the stage for my craft. I make my art every day, practicing for the days when it doesn't come easy, when I feel like giving up or getting a 'real' job.
My practices hold space for the reception of my future. It's in the small, often uncomfortable moments of practice that I meet myself, that I can say with some clarity 'This is what makes me tick, this is what I'm made of, who I am'
So when the future waltzes in, it may be completely unknown, but I, in myself, am able to greet it with presence and anticipation. The future, like everything else, deserves to be greeted with wonder and curiosity.
May 05th, 2022
Hello. I hope this finds you well. This is an unusual time and place to be, and I am grateful we can share this virtual space and create a community together. Thanks technology, thanks open- hearted humans!
In my 100 mandala's journey, and I'm on #10...I'm discovering that my artwork has become a tool for me, an actual practice in the same way as meditation.
As my consciousness is shifting and I'm deep diving in my hour+ a day meditation, I'm able to regard my work in a very different light.
I see it very much as coming thru me, not in a woo woo way, although that's not a wrong way to describe it- a better way might be the feeling that the whole design is complete and my job is to fill it in as best I can. Which makes sense intellectually, idk- I've never conceived of it in this way.
The difference is in my approach. Now, when I sit down it's as if I'm meeting up with something. Not *just* sitting down to draw. I carefully now arrange my tools, give myself enough time and space, clear my mind...and wait.
I also sense a shift in my understanding of intention setting- the intention creates a net, a filter maybe- a vibration? A field of sorts - but I FEEL it now as a resonance that I am IN when I am drawing. Very whole/holy space.
So this is what Joseph Campbell meant when he says it's imperative that we each cultivate a sacred space...
Its real. I can feel it. So wow. It's such a subtle thing. And I guess my point is; this works. When you are consciously paying attention to yourself, holding loving space, something beautiful begins to stir. And it IS magic!!!
Much love to you beautiful souls today!!
An artist on a transformational journey, recognizing myself daily, in everyone and everything I encounter.